Week 20 checkup.

I had an appointment this morning and saw the female OB in the practice. She's super nice and I feel really comfortable with her. She gave me some awesome news regarding my APF test. The results were all fine. My result for Downs is 1 in 820, the average number for a pregnant woman my age would be 1 in 150. My result for Trisomy - 1 in 9,500, average number - 1 in 100. My result for SCD (don't even know what that test is, Dr. told me that it's pretty new) 1 in 10,000, average number 1 in 250. I also tested negative for a neural test. I'm very relieved. Hopefully I will not PROM with this pregnancy. The result from this pregnancy are so different from the numbers that I got when I was carrying Spencer. Maybe there wasn't anything that I could have done differently to save him. I'll never really know since we didn't do an autopsy. I've been carrying the burden of guilt with me for a while now. Thoughts of 'if only I did this' still cross my mind.
I also asked my Dr. about this growth that I've had on my cheek since I was pregnant with Spencer. It's like a big dangling piece of flesh and I find myself inevertently tweeking with it when I'm bored. Kinda disgusting, I know. I've been calling it Fred. She told me that it's due to hormones and that I can have it taken off by a dermatologist since I'm no longer in my 1st trimester. I made an appointment with someone whom she recommended and Fred will hopefully be off my face come next Tues. I'm going to miss you Fred, but at least I can tie my hair up in a ponytail again.